I've been having strange dreams lately; everything looks so vivid, it feels so real. Anyhow, I don't know why but the constant thing in my dreams have been music. It's like if my brain was trying to tell me something but so far I don't seem to get it.
In my dreams I've seen a lot of people that 'cause of the distance, aren't around me at the moment. The weird thing is that in the middle of the dream I kind of disappear and instead of being part of the dream I just see it like a movie. Suddenly the music starts and the strangest thing is that I wake up with the song in my head and then I hear the song on the radio while being at work. The weird thing is that these songs are kind of old and they don't play them that much, but the day I dream with one of them boom I hear it.
On Friday I woke up early to go to work, and in the last 5 minutes of my dream I saw someone I haven't seen in a long time, and then the song "Baby can I hold you tonight?" by Tracy Chapman was playing. I wanted so bad to say YES to the question I was being asked, but I couldn't. And the music got louder, and my heart got colder, I saw how the face I was seeing was fading and then I woke up. I felt really sad the whole morning, nostalgic, mellow, hard to explain... and then the song came on the radio at work and I started to sing aloud without thinking I was at work surrounded by people; all of the sudden I realized that one of them was staring at me 'cause a couple of tears were rolling down my face so I pretended I had a headache.
I wish I could fix me, I wish I could tell what's wrong with me but I can't! So I guess I can only keep on dreaming 'til I get the answer that I've been looking for. Keep on waiting for a sign and sing along with the memories of those songs that always take me back to a time when I was who I am not.
