When You Wish Upon a Star ♪

When it comes to dreams I can say that two of my biggest dreams have come true.

Today's a very special day for me and I feel immensely blessed! My husband Getjan & I are celebrating 5 years of being married, but that's not the only reason to feel so happy. 

On the beginning of Sunday, 00:54 to be exact, August 28th God gave me the opportunity of witnessing a miracle, the birth of my daughter.
Since I was 20 weeks along in my pregnancy my husband and I knew we were expecting a baby girl, she became our Blueberry; we started looking for possible names until we found two that we liked Skylah Shylie.

There are a lot of things a new mom could tell about her baby, or about the experience of giving birth, to me it's all said with one word "miracle". All I know is that I spent half of my life praying to one day be able to become a mom, that I've struggled and almost given up on the idea; that God listened to my prayers and last December I was finally able to conceive and that almost eight complete months of 2011 went by 'til I could kiss the beautiful face of Skylah.

There's nothing on this Earth that can compare to the ocean of emotions I felt when she was resting on my chest after working hard with me to leave my womb.  

I started this post talking about dreams, I can say that God has given me much more that I deserve, He's given me a great man that loves me just as I am, a wonderful & hairy canine son, Weechee, & God has blessed us given us our daughter Skylah. The only thing left for me to do is to pray so both of my dreams have nothing but happy endings. 
Funny how someone can get all they ever dreamed of and more by just looking up to the sky searching for the right star.

32nd Birthday

On April 30th, 1979 my mom gave birth to me; that was the beginning of my life as Carmen Angélica Peregrina Carcach... now 32 years later and an extra last name I've realized that a lot has changed and a lot is still the same. 

Changes... well I moved far far away 'cause I married a redhead whose mother tongue is pretty uncommon, I live in a 3 bedroom apartment on the 10th floor on a town with a funny name that my mom can't pronounce (Uithoorn), I've seen places I used to dream of when I was little... *sighs* 

Still the same... I'm still grumpy, tend to say what I think or feel (yup good and/or bad), I'm complicated but easy going =P, stubborn & impatient...

I guess at the end, today what matters are the reasons for me to feel so happy; this birthday was much more special than any other and it all comes down to one reason, my Blueberry, my daughter...

Things might change or stay the same, but one thing is for sure, the love that I have for this wonderful little person growing inside of me goes beyond my imagination. Words can't express how much I love her father and knowing she's part of both of us, part of the love we both share for one another makes it even better.

This year has been wonderful, I might be older, I might be complicated and grumpy but I'm one of the happiest pregnant women on Earth at this very moment 'cause while I'm typing my daughter is letting me know she's there.

Blueberry

I've been waiting to write this post for several reasons, I guess the biggest of them was fear. Today I went to the doctor, today has become one of the BEST days of my life; why? Well... today I've heard the most significant sound in my world, the heart beat of my baby.

 There aren't words that can describe how wonderful & amazing those feelings are. All I know is that I've never heard something as beautiful as that. To me the sound is simply the most perfect symphony ♥

Blueberry is only 10 weeks old, but so much has changed since he/she arrived. I don't see myself as Angie the crazy one that can do whatever she wants, now I gotta think twice before doing something, now I'm not Angie the wife, now I'm Blueberry's Carrier... which basically means I gotta be careful, eat healthier (whenever the bloody hormones let me eat cuz gosh I can't stand sooo many things at the moment), think more about him/her than about me; for someone as selfish as me that can be difficult, but I gotta say that it has been easier than I thought.

Anyhow, I just wanted to share the news, this is officially the first post I do about my baby; I'm sure this is just the beginning of many more. Here I share the very first pic of Blueberrin when he/she looked more like a peanut ♥