Half of a soul...

I wonder where and when can I let this sort of emptiness fade away; ♪I feel it all around, the sound of missing you, the silence is so loud♪ (Wildboyz ft. Ameerah - The Sound Of Missing You), just wonder if these phrases show too much of me, if they let you see what I feel...

Wish I could put into words what this whole situation means to me, I guess I can't cuz there's a part of my soul missing, living somewhere else...

I promised myself that December was going to be the closure of this "brief story" but somehow it kept on showing up in my mind; I wrote a lot during December & January, most of it a secret conversation between you & my soul. I wrote you lots of letters, one said something about how it was time to accept the fact that there's no point on wanting the 2 parts to get together when each of them has taken its path in the world; sometimes I simply wrote notes, telling you I miss you, I wish we could talk. 
Yesterday I had a  serious conversation with soul while being pretty drunk. I guess she knows that even when she finally let go half of herself, she will always be able to find her other half in songs.

I'd like to be able to tell this story better, but I can't. The soul has only dreamt  of feeling whole once, aiming for a perfectly imperfect wholeness. One that was never meant for DO or DIE; a kind of ALL & EVERYTHING that could never be certain; something worth dreaming of... 
I wish things would've been different, that fear wouldn't have conquered your mind. I wonder what was going through your head to act so unexpected. All I know is that it really happened, it meant more than what you or me will ever want to admit. It could've been the beginning of a journey in this weird game where you win when you find your soulmate. 

Music... it always talks about you, they all sing to our shared soul... ♪You gave me more to live for, more than you'll ever know♪ (Jeff Buckley-Last Goodbye); the title of that one kinda says it all, right?