Hectic Thoughts

Note to "YOU":

Consider this to be a compilation of thoughts & feelings stored in the depths of my mind. 

The way we "met" couldn't have been more random, definitely a proof that destiny does exist. 

Back then I didn't imagine what you could ever mean to me; how a game, a challenging question and a silly answer would be the beginning of a new chapter in the book of my life. I'm writing to let these feelings get out of my mind, to let you read what I don't dare to share. 

I love you in several ways, especially when I'm alone. 
I love you all the time, every day since the -only- time I saw your smiling face. I love you ever since even though I shouldn't. 

I love you when you're busy, when you're distant, when you're away… I love you all the time cuz no matter where you are, you are here, inside of my mind, inside of my heart. I love you before I close my eyes when I'm ready to fall asleep. I love you when all these feelings gather in my head and I cannot sleep. I love you when I wake up and I start wondering if you'll show up. 

I love you when I'm busy and suddenly my phone let's me know you're there. I love you when I wake up and the blue light is on, huge smile on my face cuz you thought of me before falling asleep. I love you cuz you're funny, sweet and crazy. I love you cuz you make me feel beautiful.

I love you cuz your hands haven't been on me and I swear you already own my body. I love you cuz your mind connects with mine in a mysterious and magical way and I feel like I've known you forever. I love you even though you went away and I tried to pretend you didn't exist. I love you cuz I feel it's a blessing to have met you.

I love you cuz when you came back it was like if you have never left. I love you cuz we might not be meant for "do or die" but we were meant to "this".  I love you even when I know you're not being honest, I love you even though it hurts.

I love you in secret; I love you when I'm listening to music, reading or whenever I'm writing. I love you now when I know we haven't met. I love you now when I'm afraid to show you this. I love you in many ways, some might be good, some might be bad, but I love you with honesty. 

I love you in my dreams, the ones I dream while being awake. I love you in my fantasies, in my stories, in our messages.

I love you when you're with her or when I'm with him cuz it's not about them but about all this. 

I love you cuz you aren't real, cuz this version of you exists only in me.

I love you in the only way I know; I love you in silence and with all my words.

I hope my words aren't much more than you can take. I just got so many "I love you's" stored in my head and I needed them out. If this whole thing is indeed too much, just remember to be gentle as I'm not the kind of woman who vents her feelings that easily.