A Bit Of Honesty...

Someone told me once that my problem was that I think "too much"; back then I'm not sure I got the point, but now I do. You see, you were right about me... I do think too much, I do walk around things trying to understand them 'til I can't anymore. If that's a problem or not I don't know but most of it, I don't care.

If there's something you can't deny is that I've always been open & honest about the way I feel; maybe not in the right moment or not when you expected it, but I've tried.

Nowadays, I don't know anything anymore... I'm so tired of looking for reasons to stop thinking about him, her, them, you or me... all this has gotten to the point when I just don't care.

I used to believe in fairytales by the book you know? Nothing could cast the fantasy away, but people were right... the older you get the worse it is; little by little I've stoped believing in certain things, one of them in your word. I don't know if you understand what I mean by that though...

Back in the days you know you could say a whole story & I would've swallowed it complete without even wondering if you were lying, now, I don't know if I want to believe 'em anymore. It's not that you've lied a lot, it's not like you have hurt me, it's simply that I'm so tired of the same "promise" old you & the same "stupid" old me. You could've had it right this time, it didn't really matter that our lives are so messed up & that we're so fed up with our own mistakes. The old me was there waiting for the old you to show up...

I wish you could have the courage to face the old & the new us, I wonder... why not? I mean, I can't say we were so bad & for what I can see, we're not so bad now either. Just think about it this way, it has never be our style to go away without saying "Goodbye" & even when we've said our goodbyes before, they've always been nothing but bullshit, so I'm kinda hoping you join me in this adventure & see how good or bad our story can be.

All I can say is you're not the only one who's afraid, I'm pretty much scared too.